Why did I start going to the gym?

Hi, its been so long since I last went to the gym.  I'm doing this post not because I want to give all of you some crazily great ideas about workin' out but I want to remind myself the reason why I started exercising one year back.

Most of us (yes including myself) we want to look slim/fit/pretty/hot especially if we are girls we feel insecure no matter how we look. 

Admit it, girls.

Ok at least thats how I feel all the time. 

I used to complain so much about my looks.  

I have natural curly, freezy hair that I need to straighten every year;  

my arms and legs are hairy compared to other girls;  

my eyes are small and I dont have double eyelid;  

my skin tone is dark since I was born;  

last but not least, I am fat.  

Yes I use the word fat because I was born meaty - I am never the stick thin type.   I used to complain so much I got so sick about myself.  Oh not forgetting I am one really lazy girl too.  I don't like to put on make up, I hate fixing my hair and spend hours applying stuffs on my face.  I'm just not that kinda girl.  But I guess slowly you just have to despite how much you don't want to.  There was this moment I became so fat and ugly, yes ugly because I had acne all over my face.  It was disastrous it was pain it was horrible.  I remember crying to sleep every night because even washing my face with water was painful.  Thank God my face is better now but nope, my body is not. 

If you read my post HERE, you will understand how much weight did I gain and lost in these two years.  I lost 10KG in 2 weeks time when I started workin' out but it all went down to drain when I started working in a difference environment as I didn't manage my time properly.  

I was 47KG at the age of 17, went up to 67KG at the age of 21 to 22, then went back to 57KG after I start exercising and now my body weight is stagnant because I stop all that I did while losing the 10KGs.  

I love food. I love sweet food. I love dessert. Anything that looks good and taste good makes me really happy.  I don't know is it a habit or I'm really born this way.  I can spend hundreds on food not not 300 bucks on a piece of dress.  Yes that is me. 

Why typing the above you say?

What I want to share is that I'm also one of the typical girls that loves food but also want to be pretty at the same time. You can't deny that the society is cruel.  If your face looks a little bit better, your body looks a little bit slimmer, and if you're a little bit smarter, you get your way up compared to the rest.  Well now I don't complain about my eyes, skin tone, hairy skin and hair anymore but one thing I have to take care of is my body.

My parents both are diagnosed with diabetes and high blood pressure and it is in the genes for few generation.  One of my uncle got his one legs chopped off as well.  

It scares to hear or to see how people's body is so fragile these days so I've decided to continue my journey in fitness but this time round, it is not just because of losing weight and to be slim but it is to stay fit and healthy.  Just in case next time anything happen you run also can run faster lol. 

But before that, looking at this picture of Barbara Palvin does help to motivate me a little lah. 

Or Beyonce?

How can anyone be so bootylicious?!!

Asians are slightly petite but you see why they're not petite yet they looked so good!

I remember my trainer told me Beyonce trained every single day in the gym. She can do like 200 squats in a day and thats like one of the stuff she do in the gym ON. A. DAILY. BASIS.

WOW.  Nothing comes easy huh, she's also having a human body - just like us.

I love this quote because it is so timely for me.

I messed up my body clock, I sleep late, I stuff myself with oily unhealthy food, I messed up my body system.  But nothing is too late, if the uncle and aunties can run speed 7.8 in the gym with incline 10, I guess we youngsters have no reason to give up on our body just yet. :')

You know one thing I always ask my trainer last time?

"How to just lose weight ah? I don't need to have muscle muscle all one I want to fit is size S only!"

Hahaha theres NO SHORT CUT SISTER. 

"You are exactly what you eat"

The above statement scares me, no joke. 

Imagine all the fries and chocolate brownies, strawberry pancakes, sugars, oil and oil. 

They're all IN your body. and who knows how long it takes to get em out of your system??!!

:'O

Haha, one thing that annoys my trainer very much is I always tell him I will start TOMORROW.

Guys, this is the worst thing you could tell yourself.  Not just in the gym but this applies to everything you do in life.

START NOW. NOT LATER NOT TOMORROW.

Don't let the "regret feeling" lingers around you. 

I always ask myself, ask my mom or even ask God. (yes no joke)

WHY AM I NOT BORN PETITE?

WHY AM I NOT BORN SKINNY LIKE THOSE WHO EAT NONSTOP ALSO WONT FAT ONE!

WHY AM I SO MEATY CHUBBY?

WHYYYY?!

But come to think about it, we all have a chance to make a change in our lives.

Isn't it wonderful?  Be it in your career, family, finances or even body. 

YOU GET TO CHANGE WHAT YOU DON'T LIKE.

You just have to start moving, start working for it. 

No complains, enjoy the process because the end results will be sweeter than ever. :')

Last but not least, this really applies to me so well.

Many times before I head to the gym my mind tells me I am tired.

My mind tells me I am weak.

My mind tells me I can't do it. 

Honestly whatever gym quotes really applies in our daily lives. 

Your mind controls everything. 

If you really want it, don't let anything tell you otherwise. 

Perhaps previously when I exercise all I want is just to lose weight and when I lost it, I got happy and TAA DAA. I stopped exercising and eating clean.  Well I guess its really important to fix your mentality and tell your mind that you're doing this for a long term investment.

Yes your body is yours but only yours. 

Not your mom or your friend's it is yours.

and you only have ONE body in your whole life.

If we can take care of our car/bags/house/sisters/brothers/gadget so well, why not make a first step and start THINKING on how to take care of your body?

START DETOXING YOUR MIND;

START TELLING YOURSELF YOU SHOULD LEAD A HEALTHY LIFESTYLE;

TELL YOUR MIND THAT YOU SHOULD TRY;

TRY EXERCISING.

TRY RUNNING.

TRY EATING CLEAN.

My next post will be talking about eating clean. 

I don't eat all meals clean cos as I said, I'm not body building but I just want to do what I can do first.

 Changes will come, let it be slowly but surely. 

Till then,

xx