Saturday, October 15, 2016

Grateful 25th - Part (1)

I know it's been almost 3 months since my birthday in July but finally, here I am jotting these details down before the year ends because these are the memories that I want to remember for the rest of my life. 

To some, birthdays are just another day.
But to me, I appreciate birthdays because it gives us a chance to reflect and to be grateful for another year of life. 

Another year of life means another year of progress.
I know this space isn't updated as often anymore but I do make an effort to document my progress every year to make sure birthdays are not just another celebrations externally but it should be a celebrations internally spiritually as well. 

24th birthday post here
23rd birthday post here 
22nd birthday post here 

This year, 2016 July, marks my 25th celebration of life and if there's ONE word I can use to describe my feelings, it would be none other than GRATEFUL

At this point of my life, I couldn't be more grateful for every areas, people and scenarios that God has arranged and put in my life. 

25th, is a year that I have started pursuing my call and dream according to what He has called me to and the journey has nothing short of amazing.  Amazing not because things are perfect but because every step of the way, I know I am so loved by my Father above and there's nothing that I couldn't do as long as it is called by Him. 

25th, is a year that I have grown and experience the depth and meaning of life so much more than never before. Of course, I still have plenty to learn and explore as this is a lifelong journey but I have never been clearer with the road ahead of me, right at this moment.  

25th, is a year that I have encounter so many divine relationship that makes this journey of life so exciting! Knowing that there ARE actually a lot more people out there with good intentions, good heart and good vibes!  

25th, is a year that I celebrated my birthday without the love of my life, my popo. 

25th, is a year of my turning point. 

25th, I am beyond grateful despite of whatever that's happening around me in me within me knowing that I am loved, by many, by Him. 

25th, is actually a year that I realized I really don't need big celebrations or fancy parties anymore because I appreciate intimate session so much more. (But of course if you followed me on social media you would know how BIG of a celebration my lovelies has thrown me and I'll leave that to the next post because THAT deserves a post on its own T_T) 

I remember mentioning it to my #annoyingbff, tziaaa more than a million times so she booked me on the 14th, for a girly dinner date. 

She picked me from home, handed me a bouquet of my favorite roses. 
Not knowing where she was bringing me, the suspense was quite fun!

Until Rachel ter-said the location that we were heading too :P

My #annoyingbff, and sister Rachel brought me to such ATAS place - Nobu KL for my birthday dinner! 

Thank YOU annoying one, for celebrating so many years of life with me and never failed to put a smile on my face. 

Thank you sis, for your never changing spirit of love towards me. 

It was a quiet and romantic night, just the 3 of us, overlooking the city skyline of Malaysia, celebrating life. 

.. and this is exactly how I love it to be. 

Thank you both for giving me such a great birthday dinner experience, I can't help but to think of how far we have grown.  From celebrating in clubs till cafes and now places like this which I don't normally go but now we earned our own living, and we do it for people we love. 
Love you!

July 10th, was actually my first birthday celebration along with Tzia since her birthday is on the 4th while mine is on the 15th. 

So who brought us out?
No prizes for those who guessed it right. Lol.

I've only known this two brothers, Kar Wai and Kar Heng early of this year (Jan 2016 to be exact) and I don't even know how we just clicked instantly as though we are family. 

This two has definitely been the biggest sweetheart because they planned a whole day of birthday celebrations consisting of surprises after surprises! T_T

I am going to document the details down because 10 years later I am gonna look at this blogpost and smile because genuine friendship like this is what I wanna keep for the rest of my life. 

All they said was "Lock your July 10th down, pick you after church around 230PM".
"Okay boss. Noted" 
"No sport shoe or sports attire ah" - this Kar Heng even mentioned this lololol.

They picked us up and there were 2 bouquet of roses prepared for us.
Roses with black wrappings for me, Hydrangea for Tzia. Exactly what we both love!
We never even told them before but this KH's attention to details (and stalking skills) is another level I wanna CRAI.  

Of course, the first stop was the latest High-Tea that everyone was raving about that time, St Regis Hotel. 

We spent 3 hours there just taking pictures, chilling and enjoying each other's companion before we move on to the next stop... 

We had coffee break at Merchant's Lane because KW said we are still early for dinner.
4 Black Coffee for 4 of us that purposely wore 4 matching blacks. 

3rd Stop - BLVD Restaurant!
Me and Tzia was just talking about this place because we wanted to try it out and here we are, surprised by these two! Are we too flow or what? T__T

The food was great, but the companion was better :) 

As though we were not surprised enough...
Suddenly two birthday cakes appeared! 

We were together since noon remember? How and where did they managed to arrange two cakes at BLVD? Apparently they had to make so many arrangements to make sure someone sends the cakes here while we were still at Merchant's Lane...

As though it wasn't sweet or overwhelmed enough, they actually prepared THIS. 

YES, fireworks-candle because they know me and Tzia loves taking pictures! 
BLVD building didn't allow us to lit these candles so we moved on to the next, 4th and last stop, BARLAI, just to lit the candles and of course, take pictures T_T

Thank you, BOTH of you Choong Brothers for entering my life, and you guys surely outdid yourself with all the arrangements you did for us. 

Sure, we loved the flowers, the hightea, the coffee, the dinner, the cakes but most importantly, we love your heart and the effort and thoughts behind these, to bring us out and to put a smile on our faces.

P/s: You both set the bar so high.. next year your turns we stress! :P

Last but not least, 15th July 2016, Friday.

On my actual birthday, I really wanted to do something else instead of just gathering friends for a round of fancy celebrations. 

Like I said earlier, this year, 2016 to be precise have been a journey that was filled with excitement and plenty of joy and as I realigned my focus in life, I knew that giving was more fulfilling that receiving and I wanted to do just the little that I can for anyone around me.

Find a need and meet it, Find a hurt and heal it. 
And there's nothing better that doing this with this bunch of dearest people that means the world to me.

I gathered Tzia, Alicia & Joseph, Jiashin, Shermaine, Karen & Wyman, just a small group of us and I am really thankful for Kelvin and Lex who actually joined us and lead us through the whole experience. 

Thank you Lex for prepping the 50 packs of Nasi Bungkus with the mineral water too. 
The picture above was taken after we debriefed and Lex brought out a cake out of no where -__-
Hahaha thank you so much all for going the extra mile just to celebrate life with me on this day

We live in cities often being drown with work, errands and our own stuff.
So often we take things for granted and complicate our lives with petty issues.

I am glad that we did this together and on my birthday, this serves as a reminder to me, to never take life for granted. 

We are already doing so well compared to many of them that lives on the street.
Some have no family, some has but they are rejected by them because of mistakes they did in the past. 

Sometimes, all we need is that little bit grace and reminder to ourselves, be grateful.
For today is ours, tomorrow belongs to God. 

25th, I am Grateful.


Part 2 will be about my huge surprise party! 

Tuesday, September 20, 2016

Ultra Korea 2016!

Hello everyone! Haven't had time to blog about this because I've been so busy running around but I've finally found the time to sit down and blog about my trip to Korea! First of all, I'd like to thank Play Club KL for bringing me all the way to Korea to party at Ultra Korea 2016 and to see my husband Martin Garrix!! 

Play Club recently started a new movement called Play Day Out where they send people to international parties! Was so happy to have my BBGs with me Alicia Tan & Joseph Germani, along with the winners who joined me for Ultra Korea!

Pictures below! 

Outfit for Day 1!

It's my VERY first Ultra Rave Party and I am so happy to experience this with this pair of lovebirds!

I can't wait to go to Ultra Miami.

Pre-drinks yo.

Taking pictures with just everyone everywhere - Rave Family is LOVE!

Homebound love x Ashley!

I was suuuuper excited for Day 1 because Martin Garrix had a set! It was amazing! 

If you don't already know, my love for Martin Garrix is cray.
So cray that Joseph had to record it down hahahhaaha but no. I am not sharing the video here lol. 

My baby Martin's set was soooo good but unfortunately it ended quite abruptly because of some technical difficulties. :(

We literally just had so much fun taking pictures with anyone that wears something catchy! 

Knife Part and Axewell played for Day 2 and it really was the party! So crazy!


Avicii was on for the last day and of course we had to go! Couldn't miss it!

Overall, it was definitely a trip I won't forget! 
Thanks again to Play Club KL for bringing us there! 

PLAY DAY OUT is really such an amazing movement, can't wait to participate the next one!

Work hard, Play hard!
#PlayClubKL #TheRoofMalaysia

Till then,

Tuesday, June 07, 2016

Here's part of how and what my heart looks like, currently.

Back to my own little space.

This is officially my first post of the year.

So much has changed since 2016.
I started the year without Popo, how does it feel when you lost the most important person in your life?

Many has been asking me, how do you find true happiness or even the sanity to be happy in the midst of all the hecticness?  Truth to be told, I don't have an answer(?) But I guess true joy comes when you are secured with your identity, knowing who you really are, and the purpose you're born.

To be able to discover the reason you're created, the reason of your past and your pain;
the reason why you are placed at a certain group, with certain skill sets and talent;
the fact that you know you exist to be part of something larger, greater than yourself.

To me, that's pure contentment and joy.

This year, I’ve made a decision to step out and be honest, receptive and responsive to my Father because the ultimately thing I want to do is to represent His heart.

Looking back at my whole life, I was always searching for an answer, constantly asking the universe, why am I being treated like this? Why is my family like this? Why is my life so tough compared to the rest of my friends and relatives? Why am I not as smart? Why am I not as pretty? Why am I not capable enough?  Why I can’t just do more? The never ending whys.

It was just the beginning of this year, God accelerated my growth and I don’t know if this makes sense to you but I felt as though I finally know who I am and the purpose of my entire life. The whole picture just resonate so perfectly and all the dots are connected so perfectly :')

The entire journey since I was a baby up till today.

I believe in big dreams, goals, visions and hard work because I believe one shall never settle for less because we are all wonderfully made in the image of God.

We are uniquely created to do amazing things in this life that will bring change to the generation, to the society. I am not saying this as a "Christianity concept" but I truly believe everyone has their passion and calling to do what they aspire to do.

But I have to be very honest.

In the midst of all these, little did I realized, I’ve carried this burden in me, the feeling of wanting to do more with what I have, hence every single moment as I live on the go, I kept questioning myself - did I utilize my skill sets and gifts? Am I doing enough? Could I have done better? Can I give more?

I realized I have been living my life in such pace that I missed out the most important part of life, being present.

But really, What is enough?

I am so thankful because I know my Father loves me so much that he wants me to live in the present and enjoy the process instead of keep thinking of ways to reach the destination faster so I can move on to the next step and do more, more and more.

Life is a never ending journey, there will ALWAYS be more.

We have all heard this before – It’s not just about the destination or end results, it is the process, the journey.

Just few months back in the month of April, I stepped out from my comfort zone and went to a mission trip in Myanmar.

One single trip changes my perspectives to life.

It changed the way I see life.
It changed the way I feel about my life.

It made me understand what true joy is all about.
It taught me that happiness is the simplicity of gratefulness.
It taught me that generosity doesn’t comes from the amount of money you make, but the condition of your heart.
It taught me to see things from my heart, my spiritual eyes instead of my pair of earthly eyes.

It reminded me of the core of our hearts, we are all created by God, having such pure and innocent heart.

Many times living in a big city, we are so busy running from point A to point B every time. Well at least that’s my life on a daily basis.   I meet tons of people for meetings and events all the time and because of my nature, I don't like wasting time because I want to be productive.  My normal days are packed with back to back appointments, phone calls after phone calls.

There is rarely one moment that I paused and have an empty mind because while I’m doing A, my mind will be thinking and wandering about B and C items.

It is not till this mission trip that I realized I can actually survived without Wi-Fi for more than 10 hours for consecutively 6 days!

It is through this trip to Myanmar, I learned how to be present. Not thinking about what’s next in my work, learning how to give FULL attention to whatever that was in front of me. I learned how to just live at THAT moment. And I realized I couldn’t be any happier!

Going to Myanmar has enlarged my worldview, it showed me how poor these people are physically, yet they are so rich in the spirit. We might not understand their language, but we recognize the language of love.

Their hearts are so rich and open and dependent on God, I reminded myself, God doesn’t see what you own on the outside, but God looked on the inside.

In the spiritual realm, these people are beyond rich that you can never imagine. :')

One of the most apparent thing that locked in my heart is to see the poor village’s kids being so friendly to all of us. We were all strangers, we all had language barriers, but these kids wants nothing from you but just sincerely appreciating your presence in their lives.

They just want to show you that they love you.

They run to you and shake your hands, they smiled at you for more than 5 seconds.

 Yes they are poor, they are running around with no shoes on their feet, but they know what LOVE is. There is no other intentions at all. Isn’t that the REAL way of doing life?

Back home because of what we have outside, because we have money and material goods, we are afraid to lose what we have, we are being taught not to talk to strangers, we don't smile that much because we are afraid people will think you are crazy, and we are afraid that people might take you for granted.

As a result we build walls around our hearts. We tend to judge.
We think people are filled with intentions. 

Eventually many of us slowly loses that genuine love and sincerity. We lost it not because we don't have it, but fear covers that layer of our pure tangible heart.

I thank God because these villages’ kids taught me how to live a life so simple yet finding joy in the simplest thing because they have nothing but a grateful pure heart.

I told myself, bringing Heaven On Earth is not a religious duty, it is simply just bringing happiness to people around you.

Find a need and meet it, find a hurt and heal it.

Everyone has different needs, some might need food, shelter, and a place to work and grow. Some might have everything externally, but they are lost in the spirit, they feel empty inside, they don’t understand things that is happening and they just can’t be happy truthfully.

Being able to live your life to the fullest potential is a blessing.
And we all have it in us. 

To me, it’s not that I have a lot of time to do so many things at one go but I know now, at the age of 25, yes I want to build a career, I want to be successful, I want to change lives, but most importantly, I want to be able to help others to live a life that they will enjoy, and to be fully liberated and secure in their own identity.

True happiness doesn’t comes from owning material goods only, although I still do work hard because I believe in giving the best comfortable lives to myself and my loves ones;

True joy comes from within when you realized life is so beautiful and you just want others to be able to live a life full of their own potential.

I am not a big business player in the market, nor anyone that is super influential but I believe, everyone has something to offer and if we choose to step up, learn to seek and search our hearts, and ask ourselves, what truly makes us happy? You will realized, true joy comes from serving and loving others.

Being able to put a smile on others, that is the best feeling ever.

I’ve always have a heart for old people and one day after hearing a friend’s testimony, I thought to myself, what is stopping me from taking the first step? Why plan so much when all the planning has instilled so much fear from just stepping out?

So I took the courage and gathered a few friends last month and just visited an old folks home nearby my house. It was a simple 2 hours of chatting, feeding and being together with the bunch of old people, it made me again realized, really, nothing is more fulfilling than being able to live out a fulfilling purposeful life.

Being purposeful doesn’t mean you must have big cooperate ideas that can shake and change the nations, sometimes, it is just doing things more intentional, love a little more, smile a little bit more, tell yourself, today I just want to be kind to at least one person, and when you do that, the joy you will experience is beyond all material goods can give.

What a long winded blogpost but yeah, I want to jot these down and one day when I look back, I will remember this current state of my life, and not forget the condition of my heart.

I’ve also been getting a lot of inbox msgs from some of you asking if you guys can join me for any of the sessions, of course you can! I don’t have a specific idea to help a specific group, I just want to take out some of my time, put in some effort, bring smile to people’s faces and of course, have some fun!  Be it old folks, kids, refugees, foreigners, homeless, anyone :)

You can always email me at if you wanna get in touch!

Last but not least, I just have to constantly remind myself,
Adele, this is a lifelong journey, enjoy the ride, and enjoy it with people you love. 

Thank you Daddy G.